I don't remember when I started liking guys. Maybe it was during my first years at college, and I first I thougth it only was some kind of attraction to perfection. I have always been quite obsessed with having a good looking body, and so I believed I just wanted to have the body of the guy I was looking at.
Some years later I realized it wasn't that. I liked boys as I liked girls. I searched for some gay porn and I became excited at it. Since then, depending on the day I watch straight or gay porn and I enjoy both. So yes, I accepted I liked boys and nothing happened. I never had problems with homosexuality: some of my friends are gay and even before meeting them I was raised to be tolerant and I supported equality and respect to any kind of orientation, so accepting my new liking wasn't a problem.
To be honest, I should admit it was. Not a problem, but accepting that it wasn't only a fantasy of some sort took some time. During one of the college parties for the beginning of summer, I kissed with one of my gay friends. It didn't mean anything, as he was pretty drunk and I did it not seriously, just to fulfill a kidding promise we did short before we became friends, a funny promise some of our other friends (straight guys, gay guys and girls) knew too. We were kissing for a long time in his bed, we caressed without undressing, but frankly I wasn't very impressed. A couple of months before that I had left my girlfriend and I was much more excited when I kissed with her during our time together than when I kissed my friend. I told one of my best girl friends about that (one who is a friend of my gay friend too), and she was surprised I did it. But that's it, I even had hoped I would really like doing it, kissing with a boy, so I was kind of dissapointed.
Some time passed, during which I was involved with other girls and had even a relationship for many months, and I seldom watched gay porn. When I broke with my last gf, however, I kind of revitalized my interest on guys, and it was when I fully accepted I liked boys as I liked girls. I had my second gay experience during this time too, a sort of threesome with a friend of mine and his friend with benefits. We undressed each other, we touched and I tasted a cock for the first time of my life, but to be honest, again I didn't like it the way I thought I will.
So these are my experiences with boys so far. Not quite impressive, as I still wait for the time I like being with one. Maybe the time when I found some I can play and experience with. Anyone?
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